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An update on my life since I finished 30 days of being sober…
If you followed along with The Sobriety Diaries, maybe you’re feeling like you’re in withdrawal (alcohol joke– ha!).
I haven’t written about drinking in over a week, so here goes…
My thirty days without alcohol ended and I resumed my drinking life.
That first Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, I had a few drinks each night.
Monday and Tuesday I did not drink.
But by Wednesday I was back to having wine again.
And Thursday. And Friday. And Saturday at our neighborhood’s cornhole tournament.
I don’t feel like I was drunk on any of those occasions except Saturday, but day drinking always gets me.
One thing that has been happening, though, is I’ve been getting headaches while I’m drinking.
Maybe because I’m not used to alcohol anymore? I don’t know.
I also have a sinus/cough thing going on, so that could be contributing to my headaches.
Either way, it’s enough to make me not really want to drink currently.
Each time I am drinking, I think to myself…is alcohol really and truly enhancing my enjoyment of this situation? Or am I just drinking to drink and fit in?
Many of the nights, I don’t think drinking was even worth it.
What did I get– a headache, some extra calories, and a shitty night of sleep? WOW, THANKS ALCOHOL!
At the cornhole tournament, it was definitely fun to be drinking. It was worth it.
I still was able to be sober-ish by bedtime and then get up and run a 5K in the morning.
Which leads me to my current mindset.
I am not going to force myself to not drink. But I really think about it before I pour that glass…
Do I REALLY want a glass of wine?
Will it make me feel better– mentally or physically?
Or will it make me feel worse?
If I can honestly answer that I really do want a drink and it will enhance my evening and make me feel better and happier, then I go for it.
But I try to cap it at two glasses.
Today is Wednesday and I haven’t had a drink since the cornhole tournament on Saturday.
I can’t say that I have plans to drink again, because I don’t.
I’m just going to handle each day as it comes and be happy with the fact that overall, I am drinking a lot less than I was before.